As a Christian, I wrongfully assumed that there was something wrong with me mentally because I didn’t have enough faith. I always thought that if I just had enough faith, things would get better. But they didn’t, and I struggled on and on with no relief in sight. After my diagnosis in 2004, I realized that it wasn’t because I was a bad person that I was mentally ill. There was something wrong with my brain. In other words, I had a health issue, not a faith one.
Since then, God has used modern medicine to treat my symptoms and I am a much happier and healthier person. My hope is that in sharing my story, I will help break the stigma of what it means to be mentally ill and encourage those who suffer silently to reach out and get help.
Is it all right to be angry with God? (A look at the Psalms and their model for handling disappointment and devastation in life.)
Before I was diagnosed, the Bible was my life-preserver. I clung to it when no one and nothing else seemed to be helping.
Desperately searching through the psalms, I sought to find comfort and relief there. I wasn’t disappointed. So much of what the psalmists wrote spoke to my heart. The feelings of despair, sadness, anger, and grief were poured out on the pages of the psalms before me, and I knew that I was not alone in my suffering.
Reading through these “special prayers” taught me that I didn’t have to put on a happy face for God. I could run to him with my troubles, pound him with my fists if I needed to and find hope in the comfort of his arms.
Embracing your Single Years.
When it came to being single I had a timetable that God just didn’t seem to understand. I wanted to be married by the age of twenty-six, but when that year came and went with no husband in sight, I became despondent.
In sharing my story, I’ll take you through the valley of my loneliness, to the many mistakes I made in trying to “meet” the right one, to finally learning to embrace my singleness realizing that I would never get the years back.
To this day, I’m extremely grateful for the added years of being single. It was during these times that I learned more about myself, about what I wanted in a mate and enjoyed the freedom that comes with being unhitched.
These are just a few of the speaking topics I offer. I would be happy to discuss other topics with a Christian theme, and/or a mental illness recovery theme.
Here is a sample of one of my speaking engagements: Good Shepherd Lutheran Church, Women’s Health Conference, April 2015.